IT'S A BOY!!! His name will be Collan Edward Sterling. And so far so good. He's healthy as far as the doctors can tell and growing stronger every day. Some mornings he wakes me up real grumpy like, but other mornings are just fine. Only four months to go!

Four months left!

I'm already five months along! Tomorrow we go to the doctor for an ultra sound and find out the gender! I call the baby a he, just because its easier, but I'll be happy with a boy or girl. Either way, the baby is super strong. He's always kicking and wriggling around. Destin felt him really move for the first time the other day. He just got a big grin on his face and said, "Hello baby!". Sometimes i wish he would stay still, because when he moves too much i get nauseaus. But i suppose i would get worried if he wasnt moving anymore. My belly is bulging like a balloon. And i know I've told everyone i'd have pictures like months ago, but i'm still working on that. Mom didnt lie when she said pregnancy kills brain cells. And i think my feet are getting fatter. My shoes hurt a lot. But dont tell Destin, he'll go out and buy me new shoes! We got our crib set up and im just working on shampooing all the carpets. its tough work on old carpet. takes much more work to get out the ancient dirt. But i better get up and eat before i start dry heaving. yum yum!

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Alysha and Tonya tell me myspace is outdated, and i should get one of these blogs. Like they're going to read it anyway. but at least i can write somewhere. Maybe it will be my new therapy. so i'll do 100 things about me.

1. i hate coconut.
2. and pineapple.
3. i make the best apple pie.
4. i'm pregnant with our first baby.
5. i'm terrified of being a parent.
6. but also extatic.
7. i have trouble getting out of bed before ten because of morning sickness. (that lasts all day)
8. i have to take pills to stop the vommitting.
9. i lost 15 pounds when i got pregnant.
10. i was pregnant at andy's and amy's wedding. (which is why i was crying at all the baby's there)
11. i havent smoked in five months.
12. im very proud of that fact.
13. i own a chihuahua.
14. she is my very best friend(besides my hubby)((and wheh she's not pooping on my floor))
15. i love cold cereal.
16. i strongly dislike humans.
17. i hate working for someone else
18. i just want to be a stay at home mom.
19. i got super excited about winning a carpet cleaner on ebay(just like mom's)
20. i hate mold.
21. and i have an amazing little sister willing to clean it up for me :)
22. i feel abandonded by my family.
23. i couldnt tell you 20 things about my brothers.
24. and that depresses me.
25. i love my sister jayme more than she could ever know,
26. but i know very little about who she is.
27. i wish i had the strength my mom and sisters have
28. but most always fall short.
29. i'm one of the very few people in this world that can say i love my mother in law.
30. she's stronger than anyone would ever believe to look at her.
31. she raised an amazing son who loves to spoil me.
32. i feel selfish when he spoils me.
33. i want nothing more than to grow old with destin
34. in the mountains with 10 gi-hugic dogs and my chihuahua
35. and our 1-4 kids.
36. i hope our baby is a boy, but really only care that he/she is healthy.
37. our kids are going to be geniuses.
38. by the time they're 9.
39. i hate soggy frosted mini wheats
40. i got into a lot of trouble before i was 20.
41. i sent a kid to jail for drunk driving.
42. i love candy bars
43. but havent been able to eat one since i got pregnant
44. i gave up mountain dew for the baby
45. it was my last addiction
46. our dog bowser poops as big as a small elephant.
47. our baby already has finger and toe nails.
48. i cant find a job in idaho falls
49. that also depresses me
50. i feel like im failing my family.
51. nobody makes me feel better about myself than destin
52. i love when he tells me im pretty
53. i love when he wakes up in the middle of the night to hold me for a while
54. i steal all the covers :)
55. i think oil tycoons should be robbed of all their money and thrown into the street for being lousy people
56. i disagree with my parents in politics,
57. and it drives mom nuts
58. i hate people that are stupid about their guns,
59. i love guns
60. i believe firmly in gun locks and safes.
61. when i get sick, i might as well be in a coma.
62. i hate being sick.
63. i faked needing glasses in gradeschool
64. i thought it would make me friends
65. i got teased worse.
66. i havent cut in three years.
67. and i never will again.
68. i think it left more scars on my family than it did me.
69. i'm sorry i hurt them
70. i'm sorry for a lot of things.
71. like not knowing my siblings.
72. i admire their talents
73. and disregard my own as incomparable
74. i love kittens
75. i loved laying outside in the summer with all the cats and dogs around me
76. i used to ride my bike eight miles a day
77. meisha saved me once.
78. i was going to jump in the canal, when she layed on my lap and wouldnt get off.
79. so i just cried.
80. i got in trouble for not being home to do my chores.
81. i want to see japan with my husband.
82. i hate the army.
83. they are all sissies.
84. i'm proud of my marine :)
85. the inlaws can argue, but our baby will be destin's mom's favorite. (he's the favorite child)
86. i miss my josi.
87. it depresses me that i never get to see her. (diogi misses her too)
88. i can feel the baby move sometimes
89. and it freaks me out
90. i love subway
91. the baby loves it too
92. i can make a sandwich to please anyone
93. i miss my family dearly.
94. i have finger toes
95. i love woodworking
96. i used to draw, but gave up.
97. i never felt it was good enough.
98. i love my husband more than anything
99. i fit perfectly into his arms
100. i'm clausterphobic